Archive for the ‘observations’ Category

a lack of ideas

April 26th, 2006

Every once in a while I read up on a new technology and it makes me want to try it out, see what I can do with it. Lately that technology is Mono, I've been curious about it for months. But it's not the first time this has happened, a few months ago I was thinking about Common Lisp for some time, started reading Practical Common Lisp, but I sorta had no idea what to do with it. Then it was Ruby, I read both Programming Ruby and Why's Poignant Guide to Ruby (the book everyone is raving about). Once again I had no concrete idea about what I could do with ruby. Finally, I decided to write galleryforge, and that was a good idea, because it's actually useful for something.

You see, it's not like I don't have ideas at all, it's just that none of them pass my screening process. I know I don't want to get involved in a big project, because chances are I'll never finish it. So it has to be a fairly well defined and narrow. But if I am to work on code, it should at least be useful, it should solve some problem, otherwise it feels like a waste. But chances are that if it does solve a problem and it doesn't do it particularly well, there probably already are other projects out there which do it better, so again why bother? galleryforge was a good call, because although it's similar to certain others, its scope is well defined and it does its job well. But I haven't been able to find another idea as good.

gender wars

April 20th, 2006

Funny how some things completely elude you for a long time, then you see something that makes you think about it and suddenly you're thinking funny how this never came to mind before. We've all seen drunks on the streets, right? But have you seen a lot of women drunks? Why not, why wouldn't they be? Today I did see one, lady in probably her 50s carrying a small radio playing the Beach Boys' Surfin USA, with a bottle of beer in her other hand, standing in the street. Finally some progress for the feminist movement, this must be good news. Then, like a stab in the chest, as I walk on I see two more drunks. Male. Just when I thought they had a win..

what you don't know can hurt you

April 19th, 2006

Apparently the university decided some road work had to be done and now getting to and from the various buildings has become a problem, depending on rainfall as well as where they decide to excavate next. Little did I think of this today as I was headed for the Educatorium. On the way, there was a section closed off due to road work, with metal fences preventing any traffic. Today the fences were open on both sides, so I decided to go right through it. It was just sand on the asphalt anyway, I didn't give it much though. Almost at the end of the supposedly closed off area (where people walked freely), there was a section of asphalt missing, filled with sand. The gap was probably 1m long and I assumed it was just a thin layer of asphalt missing. As I ride over it, I see my front wheel sink into the sand, turns out it was a bit deeper than I thought. I was going at a reasonable speed, so when my front wheel finally popped out onto the asphalt on the other side, I had pretty much lost control of where I was going. Somehow I ended up crashing right into the metal fence, making a lot of noise. It was really weird, I'd never had anything like this happen before. I did a quick status check of the bike and everything seemed fine. Except the chain had come off in the front and tangled up around the pedal, so dragging it back in place got my hand rather black with grease. Later I would discover something happened to the gears, cause they now skip without warning.

I had a similar accident a few years ago, similar in that once again I didn't see it coming. I was in a hurry to get to school before they close at 11pm, I think I needed a printout or something. It was fairly dark, I was going down a steep hill and then onto a gravel road which again turned downwards. On the gravel, I made a turn and skid. It may have been October, we had had snow, but it had melted. Little did I know that under the dust where I skid, there was a nice layer of ice and there's no way I could have seen it. I hit my head on the ground, started bleeding and I've been much more careful on the bike ever since.

shopping at Lidl

April 18th, 2006

Do you ever have those moments when you're doing one thing and suddenly you remember something completely unrelated and you're wondering "why did this just pop into my head?"? I was at Lidl doing the standard bi-daily grocery shopping and I see they have lots of bananas out, I check the price and it's neither very cheap nor expensive (€1.29/kg), so I'm thinking I'll get some, cause I have no other fruit in the house right now. Then I hear this voice in my head "GEORGE LIKES THE BANANAS!!!"

nationality: the survey

April 8th, 2006

Alluding to a previous entry, it struck me today while shopping that it would be interesting to survey and find out how exactly I define myself. In terms of nationality, it would have to be a mixed bag, but I wonder just how many I should include to get an accurate result. Then there's the question of allocating points to each one.

Let's start with those of lesser importance.

Dutch: 0.5%
Give it time, I'm new here. In 2 months I've come to realize that I love the country, I will seriously consider staying here after I finish school. But it's a bit soon to feel Dutch at the moment, I can't even say anything in Dutch more advanced than "Ik wil naar Ikea gaan". The culture appeals to me, though, I can't say I've come across anything yet (aside from dealing with institutions, the bureaucracy is very real) that rubs me the wrong way, the people here just seem very normal by my standards.

Italian: 1%
Honestly, to say that I feel Italian would be plain wrong. But I have to make some note of a culture that I've taken to in the last few years. It all started with calcio and Juventus, some 10 years ago. For some reason, it has stayed with me, an interest I never thought would last this long. Over the years I've tried to get involved at a more basic level than reading English translations, I've listened to rai uno, read Italian papers, listened to Italian music etc. I never made a proper effort to learn the language, I'm too lazy for that, I just enjoyed understanding something here and there, gradually getting more of it. Travelling to Italy (5 times in all) made a contribution to that as well, it's a great country to go on vacation, but I don't think I would like to live there.

French: 2%
As much as Italy is an acquired taste, France is practically an in-born one. For some reason or another, I've always had this sympathy for France from when I was a kid. On some level I always wanted to be exposed to the country and the culture. Twice in my childhood I found myself at the Riviera on vacation, that was a fantastic experience for an 8-year-old kid and I'm sure that planted some seeds. In high school I took up French, albeit not very seriously as the standard of teaching a second language in Norwegian schools is pathetic. In three years I didn't quite learn enough to carry on a conversation, despite getting good grades. Most of what I learnt I've forgotten and at this time I can read a fair bit, but that's as far as it goes. It's the closest I've come to a 4th language and over the years I've always thought sometime I would actually learn it. If it turned out that way, I wouldn't be opposed to spending a couple of years of my life in France.

American: 6.5%
Hm, a roar of silence. I was really fascinated by the US of A through many years of my life, for more than a decade. I've never put in more effort toward learning a language than I have to learn English. And although that very fact would not always coincide with Americanism, the whole American influence can be seen in a wider context than just that of being American, for are we not invaded by the culture whether we like it or not? Do I hear you say cultural imperialism? :D Well, in later years I got a little turned off the whole American thing, I became more keen on going to college in Europe (thus I ended up here). But all the same, a sizeable influence on my identity has come from beyond the pond, ranging from tv to stand-up comedy, to music, to movies and so on. Even though I think that source of influence is diminishing these days. And English, a third language to begin with, has become my first.

Polish: 40%
My roots. The only reason I would put Norwegian just a pinch above is that I spent 18 years of my life there and when you're not living in a country, you're bound to get a bit disconnected from what it is, regardless of how much you may try to stay plugged in. Well, I never paid much attention to staying in the loop, trying to keep track of what happens in Poland. I've always just known that regardless of anything else, I am Polish and I always will be, no matter how long I may not go there, I will always know that that's my country. One thing that has been a bit of a turn off is not knowing the "youthful" language. Polish friends were far and few between, so I never learnt to talk like a kid, I don't know the slang, I don't know the "hip" lingo. And in fact, when I do hear it, it sounds really silly and lame to me. Like say, try translating hip-hop lingo into Polish and it sounds incredibly dumb. So as a teenager, I was a bit on the outs. Conversely, Polish as a "serious" language I really like, reading a proper paper or magazine (tabloids obviously don't cut it) is a pleasure, the language is very expressive and powerful.

Norwegian: 45%
Unlike being Polish, being Norwegian was a choice for me. I decided to adopt it, it didn't happen immediately. I haven't always seen eye to eye with Norway and being Norwegian, but beyond my teenage "rebellion", I feel pretty damn comfortable and content about being Norwegian. When people ask me where I'm from, I usually say Norway, simply because most people assume place of residence = nationality. Also because a dual nationality takes some people about 5 minutes to understand and not everyone is interested in that. Other than that, living in Trondheim my relationship with the town has always been a little tense. It is home to me on many levels, but I never really desired to live there and I was always certain that I would move sooner or later. In fact, Oslo is the place I always wanted to live, as long as I stayed in Norway. Through 5 years in Oslo as a kid, I had a great time and I guess I would always consider Oslo as a place to live.